spiders, medication, pain, dieting and worry

Sorry, it's not really knitting related again.

First and foremost: thank the Deities it's Friday! This week has felt so long and been so hard, I'm having trouble concentrating at work this morning and with my right eye having an enlarged blind spot I'm now missing cyclists if I don't remember to look.

This week I decided that my spare wages next month are going in my piggy bank and are being spent in Harrogate at the knitting and stitching show. It will be my reward for not just ringing my boss and saying I need time off when I really do and for not completely losing my mind this week. I told Jo last night, it didn't go down well at all. He's worried about the credit card bills and is already as depressed as he was at the end of last academic year. Sorry, but I simply cannot cope! I don't deal well with stress, it makes my eczema flare up which gets me more stressed which causes more irritation and eventaully it gets so bad I can't knit or crochet to calm myself. We agreed when I got my job that I could spend my wages as I want but every month Jo tells me about the bills, thing is, if I pay something towards the bills then I end up asking for a loan from him later in the month. Atleast with my own wages I'm managing not to ask for loans or otherwise.

In relation to spiders: we have a HUGE wolf spider in the living room, he/she/it likes the wall with the dresser against and keeps to the join with the ceiling so I let him stay. He's about 2.5" foot to foot but is ever so good at keeping away from me I really don't mind. Strange really, this time last year I would have squealed and trapped it and chucked it out, now it's a welcome house guest. I was discussing it with Alison yesterday and we both agreed we'd rather have a few spiders than all the flies they seem to catch.

Medication and pain: My back has been slowly getting more and more sore this week. Usually I deal with this by throwing some ibruprofen at it at teatime for a few days and it calms down again but my new meds (Diamox) say consult a GP or pharmacist before taking painkillers, especially ibruprofen sooo, while I was in town today I popped into the pharmacy and asked why the warning, apparently sometimes anti-inflammatories can stop the Diamox working so I can't take my usual treatment for dodgy back. On the plus side, I can take my codeine and paracetamol so I can atleast keep the pain down. Alright it's not the best solution but we shall see. I'm going to be nice to it over the weekend, tonight I shall curl up in bed early, probably with the laptop and allow my back to relax a little. Over the weekend it shall be gentle exercises for it and lots of rest. After lunch today I'll get the back support out and put that on before my afternoon shift. I'd put it on now but it squishes my tummy and makes it unhappy.

Dieting: I'm trying again. Yesterday I went with Alison to do some stuff round Halifax including visiting Sainsbury's so I got loads of fruit and veg and stuff. I also decided I might manage better if I had a big lunch and a smaller tea. I've been trying normal lunch and normal tea but my stomach being empty and grumbly that long means painful tummy after tea. Today it's fresh salmon from the outdoor market, curly kale, baby spinach, brocolli, carrot, maybe peas, fresh tomato and whatever other veggies I have plus some rice to bulk it all out. I'm gonna go cook it all shortly, but I need to wash up first so I'm giving the codeine time to kick in.

As for worry: well, I'm worried!

Anyhooo, lunch time!